Saturday, March 12, 2011

What Is The Matrix? (Tilt Your Head)

I just finished watching the movie The Matrix.

I've watched it many many many many times before. I was madly in love with Keanu Reeves's big, pretty eyes and pretty face. I didn't mind that Lawrence Fishburne didn't close the teeth gap. The movie used to be the coolest, awesome-est, wonderful-est thing I've ever watched.

That was then, back in 2001.

I don't think so anymore.

On impulse, I've downloaded the trilogy about a few weeks ago, and only got to watch the first part today. Been mad busy. *BLATANT LIE*

Now that I've watched it again, it makes me wonder...

...why the hell was the movie seemed so so so so awesome back then, and not anymore now?

Back then, the head tilt, and their hair styles, and their action-packed scenes made me hold my breath and pull my hair while I go, "PICK UP THE STUPID PHONE, NEO!!" but now I feel like it was such a lame movie.

Then I thought, it's not the movie that's lame, it's just that the scenes from the movie had been parodized (I dunno if this word exists) so many times, that the real things seem.. blahh now. Poor The Matrix. :(

I shouldn't feel like this against the movie! The movie is a really something good to watch! It's like, taking drugs, without actually taking them! I think...

Oh my Keanu~~ :3

But really!

All of those parodies are so stupid! Now I no longer have the drive to watch The Matrix trilogy! What a waste of time and space to download them. :(

But I really got nothing to do, and I've run out of movies to watch, so I guess I'll watch them anyway...

Friday, March 11, 2011

That Brief Moment

I have so many frustrations against mankind. Sometimes they bother me so much, I feel ashamed to be born as a human. We are all just too, too ugly, because we take mankind's greatest gift for granted; our intelligence.

Yeah, call me sick in the head, for worrying about something unchangeable, and something that I simply cannot help. But the feelings are always there, like how annoying it is to have sand stuck in between the toes.

Are we really that intelligent?

If we are, then why the hell are we so damn stupid?

Why are we too stupid to open our eyes?
Why are we too stupid to open our minds?
Why are we too stupid to open our hearts?

Is it really hard to keep our differences to ourselves, and not smudge it all over the corners?

Is it really hard to accept a person who does not accept your ideas and concepts, as another breathing human being?

Isn't it nice, for once, if we can forget the differences in colours,
and how we choose to dress, 
and forget how we choose to believe in God; or not, 
and forget what we like or not like about each other, 
and forget about money, 
and forget the history, 
and just get along?

Have you got no pity for our poor, old Earth?
All of us fools are still here, walking on it, yet, it spins for us.
Have you got no sense of shame?

Do tears mean anything anymore?

Ignorance is bliss.
But to try to ignore, with the fake hope that we can secure a perfect world that is under control, is like to live in our delusions willingly.
To deny our impulse is to deny the very thing that makes us human.
But hey, some of us have fucked up impulse.

For a brief moment, I stopped caring if the world ends tomorrow...
I want to be in that brief moment again.

p/s : The Matrix is real! :O

Thursday, March 10, 2011

A Woman's Sin.

A woman's sin, is that she is a woman.

A woman's sin, is because she was expected to carry the imaginary honour.

A woman's sin, is that she was born weak and vulnerable.

A woman's sin, is that it's easier to put the blame on her.

A woman's sin, is that she was born into the world where there are just too damn many senseless, useless, cowards called men.

A woman's sin, is that she is a woman.

There are no two same persons in this world, just the way how all five of our fingers differ from one and another.

Stop being hypocrites, you men out there. Stop pretending like your penises aren't there.

From the bottom of my heart, I wish that all hypocrites will drop and die. Every single day.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Suitcases and Garbage

I've completed my internship leehh~~~

Finished last Friday. Immediately packed up, and came back home that very Friday evening. I've moved around many many times. Since finishing high school, I've been moving around (almost) all over Selangor. Let's see my record here.

August 2006 : Moved from home to IUCTT in Sri Damansara.

November 2006 : Quit Twintech, packed up and came home.

December 2006 : Moved from home to Unisel in Batang Berjuntai (now known as Bestari Jaya, as the previous name is said to contain profanity element... But I like the old name better. :p ). 

December 2007 : Moved to Unisel hostel in Section 7, Shah Alam. 

April 2008 : Moved out from hostel to rental house, also in Section 7. I stayed in the flat houses area, in Block 33.

May 2009 : Landlord got mad greedy, kicked us all out of the house, so moved to a new place, also in Section 7, just next to Unisel.

May 2010 : Moved to Batang Berjuntai again, because some brilliant people in Unisel thought it was a good idea to shit my faculty to the jungle.

November 2010 : Moved to Sungai Dua, Penang.

March 2011 : Moved back to Jitra.

You can see in the course of almost 5 years, I've moved around NINE TIMES! Beat that! Ok, don't beat that. I know people who've gone through worse. :p

Because I've known that I still have no place to quietly settle down, I've always tried to keep my stuffs at minimum. I didn't collect mountains of shoes; I collected hangers. I got all sorts of colours. Now that I'm home, the wardrobes are FILLED with hangers hangers HANGERS!! :p
Nonetheless, when moving out of houses, I didn't have as much items as some of my friends. Well, they've got places to keep'em. I don't. :(

But still! Somehow I've got plenty of this and that!! It's annoying! :(

Out of nowhere, my clothes bred like bunnies. Tonnes of shirts, tonnes of baju kurung, and tonnes of blouses!
That explains why I have soooo many hangers. :p
I'm a lazybum. So I don't fold my clothes. I hang them in the wardrobe.

I've got tonnes of nail polish bottles too! :D
I like nail arts, so  like to have as much colours as I can.

It used to be worse!
I used to keep lots of bags and shoes too. But I stopped buying and started to slowly throwing away the old bags and shoes, so now I'm down to two pairs of heels, one pair of sandals, one pair of high platforms, and a pair of flip flops somewhere...

My makeup items are at a minimal amount. I don't impulsively buy 10 different shades of eye shadows. I stick to brown shades all the time. I only have two shades of lipstick, and a jar of Vaseline is for heels and lips.

I have no hair accessories. I need to have hair first, in order to have hair accessories. Nuff said.

I only keep three pairs of earrings. A pair of whites, a pair of blacks, and a pair of silvers. Fit all of my clothes.

See? I don't have much stuffs right? You know it's true, because the number of shoes and earrings and hair bands that you own is no match to mine! :p

Yet, it's so annoying to pack them all up when I have to move....

p/s : You can never win me when it comes to hangers! I have more than 10 different colours, and there are about 12 to 24 for each colour. :3

Sunday, March 6, 2011

We're Not Racist!


Fuck you.

I was watching tv, and there was this advertisement about a loan scheme form a bank, which I will not mention the name.
Basically, the ad revolves around three women having a conversation about how the loan works. Of course, those three women are a Malay, and Indian, and a Chinese.

Seriously! Stop it!

Why must "happy-people" commercials in our country involves boldly highlighting the three major races we have here?? We all know that already. No need to highlight it everywhere possible!

1Malaysia is about dissolving those lines, idiots! 
No need to feel super-sensitive about everything!
No need to subliminalize it in detergent commercials, damnit!

It's not like a bunch of Malays will get upset if they weren't represented by a Malay guy in an electrical appliances ad! Not like we'll forget that we have Chinese here, if there was no Chinese actors/actresses in those ads!

You want equality? Why not equalize quotas?

I remember there was a Raya ad last year. Three kids selling kuihs. Again, same thing there. But that was kind of okay, as it was a festival commercial, and there were sequels to the Raya ad during Deepavali or CNY, I can't remember. So that was nice.

I guess those who came up with these ads ideas are idiots, after all.

I mean, look at the quality of the ads, and you'll be able to tell.

The actors/actresses are often loom very unwilling. It's like they're forced to say the lines, they're forced to smile and show their teeth, they're forced to interact with each other.

They'll laugh for a stupid lame joke at the end of the commercials. Sometimes, there was no joke at all, but they laughed anyway, which doesn't make sense... hahahahahahha!!

Makeup skills are normally very lame. Either they just simply put on themselves, or there was no makeup at all.

Seriously, idiots. No need to extra-think about racism when doing detergent/electrical appliances/bank loans ad. Just send the damn message in your 30 second space!

Thursday, March 3, 2011

The Many Ways.

"One of the mistakes that human beings do is to believe that there is only one way to live, and that you don't except that there are diverse ways of being in the world. There are millions of ways to be a human being and many paths to what you call God."

- Oprah Winfrey.

"Not all who wander are aimless. Especially not those who seek truth beyond tradition, beyond definition, beyond the image."

- Mona Lisa Smile.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

I Have Paid My PTPTN Loan!!!


I've paid a total of... RM 1



But at least I'm better than you! 
I've paid RM 1, you've paid NONE!! 


Nah, I'm not really in the situation where I can repay my loan yet. I'm mad broke (someone please donate?). I was just trying out the e-FES thingy.

I think FES stands for Financing Education Solution.

I'm extremely awed by the wonders of the internet and how it makes everything fast! (Just came out from Batang Berjuntai. Don't judge me!)

So, I've found out that here is basically how this should work.

1. You have to be a user of internet banking services. In my case, I'm using CIMBclicks.
For list of banks, click here.

2. You must have money in your bank!! No money, no need to dream about paying yet! Work super hard and make tonnes and tonnes of money, then pay! But I only had RM12 plus, so I tried on to see if I could do it. :p

3. Go to PTPTN homepage.

4. On your right side, you'll see a clickable, e-FES. Click there. Or here.

5. As you can see there, you'll need your IC number, and your PIN number. It's all written there lah, why am I typing here again??

But in case you are stupid, let me explain.

To find your IC number, go find that blue card in your wallet. The card should have your ugly face on the right. Turn it around. At the back of the card, at the center, you will see a string of numbers. That's your IC number, and that will be the numbers needed for the No KP field.

Now, you have successfully fill that in, there's a new problem. HOW TO GET YOUR PIN NUMBER??

You can either go back home, and dig into your old boxes of files, find your file where you've kept your loan agreement. Somewhere on the each of the pages, you will see numbers written in red. That's your loan number, cum PIN number.


You can SMS : 

PTPTN NOPIN <yourICnumberhere>

to 33199.

Example : PTPTN NOPIN 880231023456

You'll get your PIN in less than a minute.

You'll be directed to the page where you'll see this:

 The parts where I've circled (circle meh?) with red is where you will work on. Tick on "Pinjaman 1". Next, Enter the amount that you wish to pay. In my case, when I was trying, I typed in 1. A service charge of RM0.50 will also be deducted from your bank account. So, in total, RM1.50 was deducted form my account. I know you are stupid, so you don't understand my advanced statement. Never mind lah, may God save you.

6. Aihh I'm too lazy to type long instructions now. Then you will be directed to your internet banking page, to confirm that you have made such a transaction. They will ask for your TAC number there. Again, follow the instruction and SMS to get the number.

Then you're DONE!!

Print the receipt!! Don't be stupid and just ignore it! You might need it later! The least is to save it to your computer.

If I'm not mistaken, when paying by e-FES, the maximum amount that you can pay in a day is RM1,000 but I'm not really sure about this. (C'mon, not like you WILL make this much of transaction if you're poor and broke little student like me.. Pfftt.. :p).

As you can see on the screencap up there, the total I have to pay is RM 49,500 , and I've paid RM1 ! :D

RM 49 499 MORE TO GO!!


PSA: Don't be an asshole. Give back what you've taken. Pay back your loan. Don't run away from it. It's nice to see the 4-digit amount of money at the ATM every time a new semester starts, isn't it? If you've agreed to pay back, then PAY BACK. Have some integrity. Have some dignity.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

If You Are Wrong In All The Right Ways

I'm a strong fighter against stupid mindsets.

By stupid mindsets, I am talking about people who thinks their opinion matters, and everyone should agree with them. Please please please rot and die.

It's easy with me. I have a lot of opinions in my head. I don't specifically single out a person and shove all of my thoughts down his/her brain (well... I kinda did it to a friend, Nick; while his dealing with his own stuffs... Sorry!); but if I'm asked, I'll pour it out as it is. No sugar-coating, thank you very much!

Now, this is MY blog, so this is MY AREA. I'm free to write whatever the hell that I want here, and if you don't like my ideas, I don't see the reason why do you have the need to read my thoughts. Go and write your own blog if you have opinions of your own; people will read them IF they are interested. Get lost.

It is really suffocating to be chained down to a spot and not be able to help yourself, especially when the reason is your opinions clashes with people around you, and you refuse to live your life according to THEIR preferences; because it will kill you. 

Why should you, right? No one else knows yourself better than you do, and no one else knows the rights and wrongs of this world according to your point of view, else than yourself; right? Right! 

Sure you may say, some people who are older -- like your parents -- knows the world better because they have lived longer. Sure, they want the best for you. But it's just normal that things may get wrong too. Everybody love their parents, but after all, for how long shall one be dependent? 

At least if you've done wrong, you don't have to blame anyone else... Besides, "the best" is not what you've always wanted. Not everyone wants to be fucking rich.

/If you've got parents, but you're not, AT LEAST, financially supporting them even if you're earning more than you need, even if you yourself are already growing white hair, and they're still working to feed themselves, don't think you can preach on me for my statement. Your money is too precious to be given away, isn't it? Shut up.
Trust me, they're cursing you deep down, for being so useless./

This is what I stumbled upon Yahoo! Answers; and I'd like to share it here. You can click on the title to see the answers given for the girl's question. I've edited a bit, just to fix the caps and stuffs like that.

Would you run away from home if you were in my position?

I am over 18 and am Muslim. Since high school, me and a guy have been crazy in love and we can't be together because of my religion. It's been about 5 years now that I've been trying to forget him but I love him too much. 
He keeps on getting girlfriends to help him move on, but ends up leaving them because he's still thinking of me. My religion is beyond strict. I'm not even allowed to drive with a female friend to school. I live inside the house and that's about it. 
I am getting married to someone I've never met and am not attracted to at all. I don't want to hurt my family but I am crazy in love with this guy and I know that I will never get over him. I don't want to be married to someone and thinking of someone else. 
Maybe, I don't have the same beliefs as them. I know that some believe family don't kill family but Muslims will do anything to keep their reputation, I promise you that. It's not God that they're worried about. They worry that people might call them bad parents or tease them about how they're bad and that's why their daughter ran away. 
They expect me to be happy living like a bird in a cage. They think, just because they fed me and bought me things, it makes me happy. Love is all I ever wanted. 
I believe God is great and has mercy. I believe that as long as you believe in God and be a good person, you will go to heaven. Tell me something; if I lived the rest of my life with a scarf on and doing everything a Muslim does but not believe in it, what's the point? God can read my heart so does it matter if I pretend to believe in the religion? Women and men should be treated equally. Is it fair that if i lose my virginity i get killed for it but if my brother did the same thing, he'll be forgiven? (my own notes : Oh honey, he's the one with the shaft; you're the one with the hole and the womb. It's almost wrong to have a hole, baby girl. Tsk, tsk, tsk. /sarcasm to those who forgave her brother.)
I wish I can be with this guy but my family will kill me if they ever find me. I am in a position where I'm only trying to keep THEM happy. Don't I deserve to be happy too? I am not trying to be selfish but this is cruel. I've thought about suicide but I am too much in love to ever do that. I never want to hurt anyone but I am so in love and I just don't know what to do anymore. What do you think I should do? Would you run away if you were in my shoes? and would you feel guilty? What's your opinion?

Girl, pack your bags and just walk away. You know what you want. God sent him to you, and he will take care of you. Take your shampoo with you! He loves the smell. ;)


"Sehingga kita diadili di akhirat kita tidak boleh dengan angkuhnya merasa kita tidak berdosa dan orang lain yang berdosa. Allah s.w.t. sahaja yang mengetahui segala dosa yang dilakukan oleh sesiapa, termasuk Nik Aziz (atau mana - mana manusia yang sesuai. Dakwaan Nik Aziz (atau mana - mana manusia yang sesuai) yang dianya beriman, setelah mengkafir dan memecahbelah orang Islam, membuat berbagai-bagai tuduhan, akan ditentukan oleh Allah s.w.t. Tidak memadai dengan pengakuan Nik Aziz (atau mana - mana manusia yang sesuai) yang dianya beriman."

- Che Det. His brilliant opinion is applicable everywhere, in my humble opinion. :3

Really, Who Is Your God?

To be In a Religion Is Like To Have A PENIS.
It's normal to have one.
It's nice to have one.
But for the love of God, don't show it off in public, and don't shove it down your children's throats.

I think someone famous said this, but I can't remember who. I find it funny. If you don't think so because you don't want God to get angry on you, then STFU and GTFO. Still not happy? Apa lagi? Print it out and hand it over to my father.

Seriously, if you have fun showing off how religious you are in public, it's wrong!

It's not God that you're worried about, isn't it?
You're just worried about being teased by "people".
Now, I'd like to ask you a question.

Who are these "people"?

Are these "people" relatives? If it is, then why would you want to keep judgmental people like this around?
Are these "people" friends? Oh, go and play Monopoly instead! To hell with them!
Are these "people" the media? You're so deluded. :p

You know what? I think the "people" are YOU. Yes, you, the hypocrite is too coward to be real and face the world. Your conscience must be really fucked up.

I'll help to sort it out for you.
First, allow me to tell you the truth about yourself. You will deny it, but you know it's true. Accept this into your heart, and your mind will be clear, as your heart will be at peace.

Or, you'll fall on your knees and cry like a stupid noisy baby! >:D

It seems like...

The truth is...



That's right! If the sole purpose of your life is to make people envy you, to look up at you, then you definitely have no life, or not really living life. Who the hell goes around constantly worrying about "what will people say?"?

All-year-round, all you can think of is how to make people praise you, and you are so damn fucking afraid if someone FINDS OUT YOUR STUPID FILTHY DIRTY SMELLY SECRETS! Such as, your daughter flashes her tits on the internet to random strangers; or you've cheated on your taxes; or your wife smokes, but you're scared someone will find out because it's not socially accepted in your community... Idk, just sayin'! Maybe you've killed someone?

So... If you think, you are abiding God's law, you're insulting God, my dear. I'm sure God will put you to Hell for relating your fucked up way of life to God. I should know, because just like you, God contacts me personally on my mobile phone.

I feel sorry for you. Please die quickly.

"She click "Like" on all of your Facebook status because you are in a limelight now! She wants to have a company, after all of those misfortunes she went through, so that she won't be alone!"

Oh, please. What stupid limelight? What misfortunes? She revealed the ugly truth about them. Plus, So what if she agrees with me? At least we are not hypocrites like you. We speak our minds, instead of bitching around at the back. What comes out, comes out.

It's called freedom of speech, idiot.


Blogging bugs stopped biting for a while. This is a good song~
By the way, she's wearing circle lenses in this video! :3

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind, wanting to start again?
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards, one blow from caving in?

Do you ever feel already buried deep?
Six feet under screams but no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
'Cause there's a spark in you?

You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down

Monday, February 21, 2011

My Name Is NAAN, and I'm Not a Roti.

I wonder how much longer can I eat burwiches for dinner? Well, at least it's upgraded. Breads are whole-grained and toasted, then there's some iceberg lettuce in them, mayo, and chili sauce, when I feel like having some. :3
It's easy! No garbage (onion peels, chicken skin, egg shells) -- that I might forget and turn into a breeding ground for maggots -- that I should worry about too. :p


Karan Johar tried to send us a message from the movie My Name Is Khan. Unfortunately, manusia mudah lupa leh~

"There are only two types of people in this world; the good people, and the bad people,"

There, I made it all bright and big so that it sticks into the head of you dumbasses out there, if you have any. 

I'm sick and tired of promoting things like, "respect others' privacy" and "anti-racism"; I've been doing that on Facebook (while I was there) A LOT. But I shall not stop bitching, because I am one stubborn girl!

We all can't forget Yasmin Ahmad. Unfortunately, we've forgotten her messages. In my opinion, her movies and My Name Is Khan carried the same shit. What's the shit again? It's written in big bright blue letters up there, ass! In most of her movies, she tried to tell us that all of us humans are the same. Naan and roti are both made of wheat!

We differ in terms of colours and religion and race and cultures, but that is not the reason to bound ourselves away from each other. Why the hate? Where the hell did all the hate come from? What's with stereo-typing? I like stereo-type jokes, but that's where it ends. I don't take them seriously and make them as guidelines for life!

Why do people always try their best to link everything to a race or a religion?

"Muslims are terrorist."
"Kelantanese are snobs."
"Chinese eats pigs."
So?! If they wanna eat pigs, let them! Why the hell are you offended? What's with the butthurting? Are they shoving the pigs into your mouth? Were the pigs your friends?!
If you don't eat pork for whatever reasons, then just don't fucking eat it. Easy. No need to go on a hate-bandwagon and stupidly act as if you're super-holy or Kiwi-Kleen-clean!

Why all the hate?!

Have anyone watched that video on Youtube where a Malay boy forced an Indian boy to say "keling babi"? (keling babi = Indians are pigs)

Look at our youths. Obviously we're all fucked up, and we're all going to hell. We have no hope. Yes, I'm judging you racist bastards out there. I don't care if you think I'm wrong for deciding the future. Shut up. Go watch your kids.

To the stupid guy behind the stupid camera, I'd say, FUCK YOUR OWN ASS. You must be an embarrassment to your family. You must be a failure. Your mother should have drowned you in the well when you were a baby. You deserve no respect. I hope that your diet will consist of only pigs from now on. You hate pigs so much isn't it? What, you think you're so clean and sterile?!

To the poor bullied boy in this video, I'd say, don't let things like this put your will down. Lift up your head. Karma will take its time on those idiots who've bullied you. Pulling through from something like this will do you good in some ways; it'll make you a stronger person from within. Many are with you.

What the hell happened to Rukun Negara? Are they there only as decorations? In case you have forgotten, the 5th Rukun is


There. I made the letters big bright and blue so that it stick into your dumb heads!

I've faced racism back when I was in school, and even before that, but of course it was not on the same level on what this poor boy had to go through. Words like, "you don't belong to this country, so you can't play with us!" were shoved up my face. Good parenting there. I'm not going to elaborate anymore on this, because remembering my own smelly shit is nothing nice.

I'm not saying that we all should go through homogenizing and make all of us into one same damn thing. But at the same time, some of us failed to respect differences.

At first, when I was still young and stupid and incapable of thinking deep, I just liked Sepet because it was different. Then I saw how Yasmin tried to dissolve the bordering lines that makes the couple different. They tried their best to make it work, but no, stupid daddy had to be an idiot who went all "he's no good becuase he's different," and all of those bullcrap. In the end, everybody died in a plane crash (I fucked it up real good, eh? Go and watch it yourself la! I'm not going to sit here and do a storytelling, okay!)

The point is,

spread love~ :3

Enough with the drama, okay?

I guess no matter how much no one can really fight racism to 100%, but we all can learn something from it, and share it with the rest.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Cooking With Shafinaz

I just brilliantly came up with this recipe I thought of while sitting here doing nothing, so I'd blog it out before I forget~

Fry some chicken chunks and make them nice and crispy, then stir-fry them in broccoli, mushrooms, and carrots.

End of recipe.

Nyeh nyeh nyeh~ I'm not sharing the details for the flour mix with you! You're too dumb to get it anyway.

This whole entry is a a pure waste of my energy, and your energy. This recipe is nothing special. Google "chicken broccoli stir-fry", and you'll get something nice leh~

Saturday, February 19, 2011

OMG, kawaii des-FUCK YOU!!

*title for this entry is Jespish's idea*

I have nothing against Japan, nor the Japanese. They're, well, there; on the map. They mind their own business. They're good with creating stuffs, we all know that.

But it REALLY irritates me when I see a wapanese!

It's like a disease! These people spent a lot of time reading mangas (those Jap comics), and watching animes (those Jap cartoon series (oh, no, they're not cartoons; they're animes!)) to the point where they are literally detached from reality.

I once knew a girl who watched too much of Slam Dunk, and fell in love with the main guy in that story, and she cried many many times at school, saying, "I'll find him! He is somewhere out there waiting for me and it's true love!"
Uhh... Yeah... Why not order a RealDoll, hun? It's kinda real...

The other kind that is detached from the reality is the posers. Well, whatever they do, they are posers, basically. 

I'm not talking about Cosplayers here. Cosplaying is, in my opinion, creative and artistic. 
But it's definitely not healthy when you BELIEVE that you are the real version of an anime/manga character, and walk around 24/7 trying to eat, talk, walk, and even breathe like an anime character!

For example, this is what you say to your friends before you leave the class, "Jyaa ne!" or "Matta ne!"

Unless that was you leaving from your weekly Japanese language class, DON'T FUCKING DO IT!!
Seriously! It's not cute! It's stupid and ugly! I CAN DAMN CHOKE YOU WITH A PAINT BRUSH!! 

Stop it! You're hopeless...

Then in comes the camwhoring part. Mild camwhoring IS OKAY. Who wouldn't want a good picture of him/herself? But these posers, it'l like they have a certain pose-codes that they follow. Well, I'll just show you a picture.

I'm digressing a bit here.

Now, as you can read (I assume you can), this entry is about insulting those wannabes, yet here I am with an example of a wapanese pose, using my own damn face. It is because I need a reason to show my face here I have integrity.

The reason why I took the trouble to put on make up and blush up my cheeks like a jackass, and lift my laptop's built-in webcam high up, and bloat up my face like a retard is because I don't want to use a random stranger's face as an insulting object/subject. 

Eventhough they deserve to be insulted beyond mercy, I will not take a random stranger's picture and put it here and insult it, as I wouldn't like it if I was treated like that. I won't single out a face here, it's not like any of them have killed my mother or anything. So, if I don't like it myself, I won't do it to others, regardless of how jackass-ish they are.
Oh my, I'm such an angel! :3

Seriously! What the hell are you people thinking?! What's with that bloated up face?! You're holding mouthwash in there, is it?! (I was going to say semen, but, yuck...) It's just stupid.

It's not cute to pose like that, especially if you didn't come from the east of Asia!! It's already vomit-inducing to see a Japanese/Chinese/Korean/Vietnamese/any-other-oriental-nationalities to pose with that high-angle, bloat face! We can all agree that it's EVEN MORE disgusting to see Caucasians/African-looks/Indians (yes, I'm trying my best to be polite here, shut up) to pose up like that!

Oh, pardon me. I fucking forgot to put my damn fingers up in front of my damn face showing that peace signal!

What's up with those signals?! You think you'll be able to end all of the wars by putting up that signal?? Not only that you induce hatred towards your own face, and mom, but you also cause people to break out with rage!! Nothing peaceful about that, idiot!

Wake up! You can't be like those animated characters!They aren't real! We are real humans! Our eyes don't make up 1/2 of our faces, our skins break out, and we'll get wrinkles! If you keep acting like this, where the hell are you going to be when you're old?!

Oh, well. Why do I bother? Let natural selection take its course.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

The Saints That We Are Not.

Who is nice enough to sacrifice?

In the world that we live in today, is there really anyone who is nice enough to sacrifice him/herself to the extend it becomes the definition of the said person's life? Maybe there is a little amount of these people. I've heard a story about a guy who never got married because he devouted his life to take care of his sick mother until she died. He was 40 when the mother died. He said, he didn't want to be married, in case his wife will not like it that he pays most of his attention to his mother.

He is one of his kind. I know I won't be able to be that noble. 

I'm not going to kid myself and say that "I will do it if I have to do it" just to make me feel better. Don't be an idiot, and lie to yourself, will you? You'll just confuse yourself to no end.

To want to sacrifice, and to have to sacrifice, are two separate things.

When you WANT to do something, you gladly do it. No reluctance. No extra weigh. Your mind and your heart is at peace. Simply because it's what you want.

You want to wake up early. You want to do the dishes. You want to devout your life for your mother. You want to live your life as a monk. You're happy.

You want to.

Being a person that you have to be, can drain your soul dry.
You have to finish homework. You have to pretend to like people that you hate so much that you can murder them. You have to be stuck in a place you don't want to be in.

Your heart sinks to the bottom. You have to drag your feet, and squeeze through the minutes that pass by.
Nothing feels right. You're caged. You're not happy.

You have to.

The disgusting kind of sacrifice would be doing it just to get praised. I'm not even going to ramble about this. This is a whole different issue.

So, to what extend can one sacrifice willingly?
How long are you willing to live unhappily?
How long are you willing to keep it inside, and rot, and be bitter, and be a person that doesn't fit into the society in general? 10 years? 50 years? Until you die?

Why must one sacrifice to begin with?
It's not supposed to be called a sacrifice to begin with, if you're willing. But when you have to sacrifice, it's probably just your hope. Your last straw for something good to come out of it. Last piece of hope to make things work.

Sacrifices also can turn into obligations when there are expectations.
Expectations don't come from another dog or a tree or a stone; it come from humans. I'd say, expectants are oftentimes not willing to jump into the well themselves, so they try to push you into it, usually covered up with some lame excuses they come up with on why they can't do things they expect you to be.

Some sick, wicked, and sick-headed bastards (finally, profanity!) don't even have to jump into the well to begin with, but somewhere in their self-absorbed conscience, they feel like you should, and they try to force you too. To this group of assholes, I wish them illness. Go rot and die in a corner, and don't forget to get coated in shit as you do so, idiot!

(For a blunt example that might not be related to this entry, there was this one stupid guy who said to me, "over my dead body if you're going to marry that guy!", because he isn't really happy that he didn't get to choose my husband-to-be. I managed to dig for one myself! Oi! Who the hell are you to decide for my life?? What have you done for me, that I owe you so damn much that you think I'm going to even take your pointless opinions into consideration?! Your preferences means nothing to me so shut the hell up!!)

You're having fun expecting? Teach yourself to expect disappointment and failure. Then suddenly everything seems easier for you stupid asses out there.

I shall quote,

"Hope for the best, and prepare for the worst, and nothing in between shall be a surprise."

-Maya Angelou,  I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings

See? No expectations! Why can't everyone take life easily the way Maya's mother did??

I'm not a saint or an angel, so I'm not going force myself to do thing I don't want to, in the name of sacrifications. Don't expect me to, because I might kill you by just hating you. Or, poison your food; whichever comes first.

I put myself first in everything, just like everybody else in general.


I guess the whole bullcrap is just an Asian thing. We all like soap dramas and long-winded sufferings, so we do these things to ourselves.

I don't care if my point isn't clear. If you're smart enough, you're getting what I'm saying without detailed explanations. Plus, I'm too lazy to think of analogues to my points. I'm sleepy!

I stopped in the middle of writing this and I went for lunch, so now I forgot the rest of my points, so I'll stop abruptly!

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Warm Coke Your Head

I found a funny quote on Youtube.

"It's just hard for geniuses to find love because the world is full of idiots."


I purposely made it pink and Italic to make it look all majestic. :p

It is so true!!!!

I mean, who the hell drinks warm Coke?! Coke isn't meant to be warm, idiots!

"Oh, we're living in a warm country, so we must drink something warm like a can of warm Coke hahahaha,"

You want something warm, you drink a stupid cup of warm tea of coffee or even warm water, you ass!

Normal people drink CHILLED COKE!

I don't care if you don't agree with me, your opinion doesn't matter to me because you're ugly. I'm elegant even when I pick my damn nose.

What is it with people thinking that their opinions MUST BE HEARD and ACCEPTED by the whole damn world?! 

Just because you like your walls and curtains to be brown, doesn't mean people who like theirs to be pink are anything less than you. 

For all you know, you're an ass and nobody even tells it to you because they fucking pity you and all of your miserableness! 

For all you know, your curtains look like they've been used for wiping damn asses!

I have no obvious reason to put a big ass picture of a bunch of badgers held up together.

My point is, is you have a damn point that's different than others', don't try to rub it onto other people's faces; keep it to yourself! Use it for yourself! It makes you look damn stupid if you're trying too damn hard to shove it down others' throats.

You are indeed damn stupid if you think you are so important to everyone around you. Guess what? Don't be surprised, if one day, your wife pours gasoline on you and burn you while you're sleeping (they even made a movie out of this!). 


For example, if you drink warm Coke, I'll think you're a moron. But that's where it ends. 

I won't be another moron by taking the damn Coke away from you, and sit you down for one hour of stupid lecture of how you should not drink that bloody warm Coke; because my opinion simply not matters to you! 

Besides, we can all agree that I am a moron for thinking that I have the goddamn right to take the warm coke away from you, because the fact that you like to drink warm Coke doesn't bother my life in any way! 
It has no significant impact! 

So who the hell am I to tell you to stop drinking warm Coke as if it was making cancer grow in my stomach?! 

If I don't like it, then I don't like it! I don't have to force others to not do what I don't want to do! It's not like this is a military camp, where EVERYFUCKINGBODY HAS TO HAVE STUPID HAIRCUT SO THAT THEY BELONG?!

I guess I've made my point now. If you still don't get my warm Coke analogue, just... just go and drink a can, or just rot in a corner, you're hopeless.

Imma go and waste more time on Youtube watching makeup tutorials with the hope that I'll look less ugly, when the fact is it'll just make me look more like a clown with all those stupid colours flying around all over my damn face!

Why the hell am I scolding myself off?

Fuck you, badgers.

I just feel that this screenshot is very meaningful to me because Xiaxue replied to my comment. Maybe you can click to enlarge, or something.